What are you hoping for? What kind of changes or breakthroughs do you want to see in your life? I find it’s always a case of sorting out which things I have the power and ability to change, and which ones I just have to surrender to God, until there’s a more obvious answer.
One of my long-term worries has been the behaviour issues of my eldest son. He is continually getting into trouble at school, and struggles emotionally and relationally. He’s always been a smart boy, but his emotions often get the better of him. We don’t know why he’s often so sad and angry. He has so many good qualities and I know God has a wonderful, big-picture plan for his life, but right now things are hard and the answers aren’t obvious for us or his teacher. We’ve tried so many avenues to help him, but I feel that all we can do right now is love him to bits, teach and discipline him the best way we can, affirm him when he does well, and pray.
Hebrews 11:1 says: “Now faith is being sure of what we hope for and certain of what we do not see.”
I don’t know what the future holds for my beautiful, complicated son. But I do know God is in control and has answers to the questions I ask. I just haven’t seen them all yet. So today I choose to embrace the story I’m living, even before the ending is clear. This, I believe, is the essence of faith. Walking through the unknown things with a God that knows us better than we’ll ever know ourselves. And always remembering that a no-doubt glorious heaven with Jesus is waiting on the other side.